01.10.12
I am so sick of these restrictions others are setting for me. When I was very little, I had so many things that I wanted to do when I got older. But when the time actually came, I was still “too young” to do those things that I promised myself in doing. Well, according to other people that is. Few very simple examples are like when I was in middle school, I wasn’t able to play out until late because I was too young. When I came to high school and finally got a permit, I wasn’t able to drive around a lot because I was still too young. Plus, I was still not able to stay out until late. So I waited more and came to college. They still tell me that I can’t do this or that.. or it is not necessary for me to do this or buy that because “I’m only in college.” What the heck. Then when would I finally be able to enjoy myself by doing whatever I want to do freely? Like when I’m passed 30 and everything becomes pretty much dull and meaningless like how I don’t find Christmas.. or first snowfall so joyful and exciting anymore as I did when I was in my teens? I keep waiting and waiting until these people would finally free me in doing whatever I want to do without any interference. I know it’s only because they care about me and are just being.. overly cautious about my well-being or whatever, but well it is choking the hell out of me. I just can’t take it when people give me orders or try to control with my life or my decisions.
